(My other brother is not pictured… lives in Dallas. )
So a few days ago, I did a random check with my brother, who lives in Dallas with a “U good?” text. I expect the typical response, “I’m good.” then we move on to daily happenings in each other’s lives…but this time he mentions that he had a dream. Now, when anyone starts off with “I had a dream..” I am at full attention. Dreams are very valuable to me… like little gateways to heaven….messages sent to guide us… destinies revealed. So although I am at work, I am looking at my phone waiting for his text. So, the dream was set in our childhood home and he and my little sister were inside. There was man in the house too, being nice to them but my brother knew it was devil, so he was trying to figure out how to get out of the house, but then he looked out and saw me in the distance sitting in a car and he knew that they had to get to me to save them. So he ends the text with that, and I’m like “Wow!” He then adds, “The devil was scared of you in the dream.” Really?!
I couldn’t help but analyze the dream. Why were my second eldest brother and little sister in our childhood home with the enemy? And my brother knew it was the devil but not my sister? And why was I there to rescue them? And why was the enemy scared of me? Hmmmm.
So, I just finished reading Fervent: A Women’s Battle Plan for Serious, Specific, and Strategic Prayer by Prisicilla Shirer. The book was inspired by the movie WAR ROOM, which I saw this past week. The book and movie encourages the use of prayer for any and every battle that comes against God’s plan…instead of fighting each other, come into prayer and ask God to intercede and allow Him to do His work… fight your battle. It emphasized that while in prayer declare out loud God’s promises found in The Word and speak out loud to the enemy, rebuking every scheme and lie that steers you to lose your peace and joy. Now, going back to my brother’s dream, I may have a few reasons on why the enemy is scared of me….maybe this very blog scares me … or my boldness to thank him constantly. Other than that… I know it’s not my long list of duties at church… I can’t even say I belong to one particular church, to be honest. I am kind of bouncing around at different churches right now. I attend Catholic mass more consistently than the others, adhering to my upbringing…I was even for awhile attending 7:30am mass with my mom, which of course made her day, especially when she made many prayer requests for me to return to my Catholic faith when I started to attend other Christian churches, non-denomination churches. This was not at all an act of rebellion but a call to experience true communion with Christ… to be filled spiritually. I yearned for something more than the spoon-fed, memorized rituals that kept me distant from building a true relationship with God. The institution to ensure this never really came into view… well, at least not yet. I still go to church, mass usually, but may catch a sermon by TD Jakes, Tony Evans, John Gray…. read a book by Jentzen Franklin, Thomas a Kempis, DeVon Franklin… to be filled… to be awaken again. Yet, prayer has been a constant… my compass to direct me to the right place, opportunity, and people…
Speaking of people, I’ve been asking God lately: “Why did you put this person in my life?” I met someone… well, been re-acquainted with someone that I met three years ago. After some time, being consistent in asking for clarity on that specific question, it became clear to me that he mirrors me circa 2010, my last year in New York. I was working 24/7, survival mode, attaining money was my drive, heavy, tired, yearning for a healing. He has actually asked me to heal him. Believe me I am trying… I wish I could just touch his life and let all the bad stuff disappear… but who am I? Right now I have such good in my life, newness and clarity, direction… yet God brings a person in my life that needs the very blessings that I have in my life… as if to say, “Now that I have healed you, go and heal others.”
I will say, I am not afraid to go back to the darkness… only because I feel a lot stronger than I was before…. spiritually, emotionally… my inside parts are more stable…and it seems like that’s where He wants me to be…in the dark places… maybe where we all should be. When you are made whole in Christ, bring others to wholeness through Christ. I will stick to prayer to steer me to know what to do, where to go, and what to say to strangers, new and old friends and family, especially family, to bring about healing.
Go out into the world and share the good news with all of creation. Anyone who believes this good news and is ceremonially washed will be rescued, but anyone who does not believe it will be condemned. And these signs will follow those who believe: they will be able to cast out demons in My name, speak with new tongues, take up serpents, drink poison without being harmed, and lay their hands on the sick to heal them.
Mark 16:15-18 (THE VOICE)