The end of the year is approaching and I feel an immense amount of peace. Which is kind of odd because my finances are nowhere where I would like them to be and my career is kind of up in the air right now. Yet, a feeling of completion has come over me… a graduation on the horizon.
Leading up to this moment, opportunities have started to spring up…opportunities that do not pay anything I may add. I became a potential board member for a dance company , a judge for a children’s art contest, and currently directing a Christmas play. I have resided to enjoy these happenings with no pay with a mindset for the greater good. The duties at hand serve not me and but others. I am still in the refinement phase, a bit further along than before though, and I am fine with that. I am content to be in these new roles, but I do feel like these roles have come about bit too soon. I haven’t acquired any public recognition for my talents or experienced great material success. Why now?
I went to a board meeting not too long ago and wondered what I was doing there. You had people there that had families, owned businesses, knew people with money, while I, on the other hand, am making a living as a tutor, living with my parents and using the bulk of my paycheck to pay off my student loans. Near the end of the meeting, I was asked to stay behind. I was thinking the worse. After seeing me a few times at meetings and googling me, I presume, they realized I was not cut out for the position. I would be fine with this decision. It all seemed to premature, really… a board member? Yet, I was asked to just look over the bylaws to make my presence on the board official.
Small beginnings popped in my head when started writing this entry so I googled it. I decided to refine my search: Small beginnings in the Bible… I needed it to come from a reliable source and came across this:
Do not despise these small beginnings, for the LORD rejoices to see the work begin…” Zechariah 4:10
So, although large amounts of money is non-existent in my bank account, a work within me is starting to bloom. These new roles may be mere introductions of what is to come… a glimpse of my future-self …. or rather purpose starting to bloom. The perfect Christmas gift.