When the Lord called, Samuel! And he answered, Here I am. He ran to Eli and said, Here I am, for you called me. Eli said, I did not call you; lie down again. So he went and lay down. And the Lord called again, Samuel! And Samuel arose and went to Eli and said, Here am I; you did call me. Eli answered, I did not call, my son; lie down again. Now Samuel did not yet know the Lord, and the word of the Lord was not yet revealed to him. And the Lord called Samuel the third time. And he went to Eli and said, Here I am, for you did call me. Then Eli perceived that the Lord was calling the boy.
1 Samuel 3:4-8 (AMP)
I heard this scripture recently and thought of a time when that happened to me. Samuel grew up in the church but had not experienced the voice of God just yet. He was young but was destined to be a great prophet. Well, i’m not to sure if I’m destined to be a great prophet but recently while I was sleeping and I heard someone call my name. A man’s voice to be exact. At that very moment, I got up, turned on the light and opened the Bible. I don’t even know how or why I thought I should start reading the Bible but it was like an automatic response.
This call was to spend time with Him. It was 4 am. “Before you start the day, talk to me. Acknowledge me.” I tried to upkeep this discipline of getting up early to pray and/or read but it only lasted for a week or so. After I stopped, my internal clock still woke me up super early, but I didn’t want to get up. Like this morning my eyes popped open at 3:44 am. Did I get up to pray/ read? Nope. I have to admit though, when I did fall into the routine of waking up that early my day went smoother, I was able to deal. I mean I still pray when I wake up at a decent hour, but it’s a few requests and a thank you Jesus, then I’m done. I don’t spend quality time with Him as I should if I would have woken up at 4 am.
I had a dream recently that I was wearing a dress. A white dress. Almost like a nun’s outfit, with a white habit and everything. In my head or maybe out loud I said, “This is not the wedding dress I wanted.” People were sizing me up in the dress and yes, a wedding was taking place, yet in the back of mind I knew it was not a typical wedding taking place, but more like a commitment ceremony. Now, I know I’m not called to be nun, because God has shown me otherwise, but I know He would like me to be totally committed to Him in this phase of my life right now. Like any relationship, one has to minimize the “me time” a bit in order to build a true relationship. This is a new relationship in my life so I need to do my part and be available. I need to pick up the phone… even when I don’t feel like it.
Samuel finally does realize that God is calling him and he answers, by Eli’s instruction:
…Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.
1 Samuel 3:10